My husband and I were together for 15yrs. I've been following him around in the military for all of this time. Now, I guess I'm no more good. We've been separated for about 7 mos. I have good days and bad days... I'm hurting particularly bad because I made the stupid mistake of allowing him to be with me intimately. I allowed it and wanted it because I still love him. But, nothing has changed with him...to make a long story short. It hit me that he was using me...I became very angry. The pain came from somewhere I can't even explain. He proceeded to let me know how happy he was that we were getting a divorce.(he's yelling and shouting at me)He says he hates me. And, he thought I was "mature" enough to handle being with him like that.(WHAT?) I have felt pretty bad since that conversation day before yesterday. And, to top it all off he called me last night to ask that we "do that" again. I could not believe it. I thought maybe he had called the wrong person since he has sooooo many women...I just told him to call one of them. I don't understand why he plays with me like that. I actually limited my contact but he's the one that initiates contact. However, we do have a son but he really doesn't communicate with him like he should. I just don't know. I can't believe this is my life.
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