My husband and I have been officially separated for about two weeks now. That isn't very long, I know, but the past six and a half years we have been discussing the issues that got us to this point. I have been unable to open up to my husband emotionally fully for a long time. I feel like I am not being honest, like I don't fully love him the way I am supposed to. I have for a long time felt that I am pushing him away so much, eventually he is going to react. Last week he finally did. He confessed to me that he spent the night with another woman while we have been separated. He says that they didn't have sex but did everything but. I just am having trouble processing my emotions on this. I feel like I pushed him away so much, it was only natural that this eventually happened. But, at the same time I am really angry that he had to bring this into what was already so complicated.
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