Although we split a while ago, we lost our virginity to one another, not a choice I took lightly. He promised me the world and the thought that he is now with another girl is like he's cheated. We belonged to eachother (not is a crazy posessive way) and now that's ruined. His arms around her...him kissing her, it's tearing me apart. They are in the city I stayed after giving birth to our son- a 'special' place to me before because it was such a special time. Knowing that they now walk around that city hand in hand, sleep in the bed we slept in together, I just can't stop hurting. I haven't been on this community in months, I was doing SO well, I moved on, got a new life and that's all been tainted. He told me yesterday that 'I'll always love him' because of our past and the fact that we have to remain in one anothers lives for our son. I feel so low, worse than the initial breakup (I didn't think it would get any worse).
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