A few weeks ago I posted a topic should I run . Short version , seperated for 5 and a half months , met a man who was also seperated but there was always a possiblity he would go back to his wife . ( both of us were from long marriages ) Things were getting heated between us and we were sleeping together . Well for a few reasons he did go back to his wife , he said it was because he was confused and , he didnt want to loose all the money he had in his home that he built and loved . He thinks he still loves his wife but , has no desire for her . So I said good bye to him and wished him luck . I wasn't in love with him but very much attracted to him and he was very attracted to me ... So hes not back with her for 24 hours and hes sending me emails . A few days later he came to my place and we just went for coffee and talked for a few hours . When he brang me back home we stood there hugging and kissing for a bit and if he didnt have to get back to his wife before she became suspious he would have ended up in my apartment . I dont want to be a mistress , it goes against everything I believe in , its just wrong . When I met him he had already left her so thats why I went out with him If he doesnt desire his wife anymore then why not leave her for good . I just cant seem to say no to him the chemistry is just to strong . I am just so confused about him . He lives about a 30 minute drive from me so we email each other everyday . Why can't I let go , why cant I say no I don't want to see you anymore ? I cant say he is a replacement for my stbx because after what my stbx put me threw for 3 years I can honestly say I am happily seperated and ready to move on and I know I deserve better than waiting for a man to decide weather he is staying with his wife or not but , I am so attracted to him . Someone please slap some sense into me , my girlfriend who I confide in has tried to tell me to not see him anymore but its soooooooo hard . Anyone please help me to try to make sense of this !
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