I am new to this group. I met someone on DS and have been talking to him for 4 months. things were wonderful from teh start. We had alot in common. He told me after a while he loved me. We made plans to meet each othes family, etc. Then we found out that his previous cancer came back and he only has 3 or less months left to live. I am bipolar and I often lose my temper and I lose my temper and dump him from my friends list. Then I feel guilty and beg him to come back. I feel so guilty. We get back together but then eventually he calls me self-centered/ I realize that most of this is over his health.But that affects me too. We are currently not talking again. I dont have much time left with him. I hate begging, but my heart is breaking. I sometime want to have the cancer so that he doesnt have to go through this. I dont know how to get over this. I am tired of crying and the fighting. I havent eaten for weeks and have lost 48 lbs. I get so sick when I eat. Can anyone help me?
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