My wife has custody of our two children and belittles me and tell the kids how nice everything is now that I'm out of the picture. I know this because she actually confronts me with this resentment/anger when she isn't wearing her mask of civility. I was a good husband and father for 17 years and was completely dedicated to my family. My wife sought the divorce after I had received a the diagnosis for bipolar disorder. She was concerned that if the illness became an issue during our retirement that it could take all our savings if I had to be institutionalized. At first she wanted a seperation agreement stating that I would pay foor my own hospitalization if it came to that. Then she became very aggressive in saying how she couldn't live under the shadow of bipolar disorder and wanted a divorce. I watched and listened helplessly as all the good things I had done were dismissed in order to legitimize this move. What was especially painful was how she turned the children against me. The daughter I doted on for years will have nothing to do with me and my son gets his father time from the new man in her life and has repeatedly cancelled our outings together to be with my ex-wife and her new boyfriend. I am out of my mind and am unable to manage the devestation I am feeling and feel the only relief from this unrelenting agony is suicide. The pain of being excluded from my childrens lives is more than I am capable of bearing. I am an emotional wreck and would have never believed that the pain I am experiencing now was even possible. Please give me a reason to fight for this life because right now I can't think of any and the constant drain of my physical and psychological resources makes suicide seem like my best option.
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