i was with my ex for so long, nearly two years. whitch is the longest relationship i have ever been in. well though were two completely diffrent people, i fell in love with him and i cant just let him go like that. well when i came to kentucky, everything went okay with michael and i. but then he started saying how we should break up, for a couple reasons, reason 1. our age diffrence. which has been a problem in the past, im not quite 18 yet, and he just turned 26. reason 2. he thinks we dont see eye to eye on certain things. though we are diffrent in so many ways thats not nessacarily bad right? im just more romantic person, he is more independant, and likes to keep busy. i waas going to arizona for a couple reasons, but one reason is to try to win him back. my heart couldnt take it to see him with another woman, it would kill me. i already know he's searching i think. and i cant stand it. sometimes i think about siucide because i cant take it, i juts want it to be over with.
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