I started crying when I left to run necessary errands with my daughter tonight. I met my husband in this town when I went back to school for my second bachelor's degree, and then we loved several other places and only fairly recently moved back. We met 14 years ago, and I was young and thin and cute. Now I am old and fat and stretch-marky! (Yes, guys, I know this is super attractive to discuss!) He's moving to our favorite town we ever lived in, by his choice, alone, and, here I am, shopping for groceries alone at 9 o'clock at night in a a town where I was last a cute college student, and now I'm a washed-up nothing! Yes, that's how I feel! And I put on makeup for the first time in several days, and now I've bawled and cried so it is running down my face, except for the mascara, because I have the good sense to wear only waterproof! But I can't stop crying, and don't feel like I ever will. I yelled at my daughter for dropping groceries on the ground, and then started crying again int he house because I just don't feel like I can do this alone. A woman at the grocery store overheard me telling my daughter we couldn't buy a Tinkerbell doll right now because we didn't have any money, and gave us $40. What a blessing. But in some ways, it just made me feel even more pathetic! The woman told me how her husband had lost his job too, but now they're doing okay. I told her that MY husband had lost HIS job, and now he had gotten a new one, but he didn't want me to go! I'm telling strangers my life in the grocery store parking lot! And what if my husband lied about being faithful and I have AIDs? I think I'm having a breakdown! Of course, stupid me, all I've eaten today are a few chocolate chip cookies and some blueberries....stupid Michele--I need to eat! Low blood sugar, PMS, and being dumped by your husband do not mix!
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