Reasently I have went through a bad breack up. truely it was the best thing for me because the breakup opened my eyes to so much that was wrong in my life, and as a result I have changed my life forever.I knew from the day I met her that my life would be changed forever, I can't even begin to explane so I want try to, but let me say this GOD dose work in strange ways. after the breakup I did see everything that I had been doing in my life for over 13 years,and I mean everything. I have been running for everything in my life and trying to cover up the hurt with alcihol. well I rededicated my life to GOD and I have quit drinking and got the help I needed to let go of all the anger and hatered I had in my heart for so long and I have been blest as far as all of that goes. I have started talking to my family again after over 13 years of hideing and drinking. things are going well, but the problem is that the woman that I love so much and that turned my life around now will not have anything to do with me and Is with someone eles. I am happy for her yes, but in the same respect I just can't understand why she is giveing everything that I ever wanted her to do for me and with me to someone eles, and why she could not stand by me when I needed her the most. the problem is that I just cant seem to get her out of my mind and I have tried, we do not comuicate with oneaanother but things she would never do she is now doing online and I sometimes think that she is ddoing what she is doing to hurt me or make me feel that much more down. anyway I just cant seem to forget her. I never will forget what she did for my life. But I can't go one knowing that I will never be in her life again, I can't seem to get her out of my heart, and I ask GOD every night to please take her out of my heart, but it seems as though the love for her just gets stronger. what is wrong with me and what do I do. I have got to move on, I just can't seem to.......HELP
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