As many times I've been through this I never learn! Once again I have fallen too soon for a man and he does not care for me as much as I care for him. I am such a fool!!!! It's bad enough to be going through a divorce but I keep reading men wrong. I think they're into me but they really aren't, I'm just a great stop along the way before they meet Mrs. Right. I let my heart out again too soon and I got hurt, he doesn't know that I know and will probably still try to pacify me. I made arrangements to meet him for a getaway where I know we probably would have ended up having a sexual relationship. I was so drawn to him, the chemistry was incredible and I never felt that way before. He was everything I was looking for and I was willing to wait for it. He was honest with me too but I kept falling anyway. I have only myself to blame. I'm not what he really wants, I'm what he wants right now so he doesn't have to be lonely. I know I have to cancel my trip but I am so sad right now and can't deal with it. He is out of town and I know he will be trying to find a way to let me down easy. I am so stupid, why do I do this to myself? My heart is breaking while writing this, what do I do? I can't see my counselor for another 10 days and he will be back before then. What we had going was really exciting and awesome but I'm going to have to do something or just withdraw. Help me soon. I am soooooo sad.
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