I have been doing fairly well with my life. I managed to pull things together and even end my fall semester of college with straight A's. I have been eating like normal and going out and laughing and all the things I stopped doing for a good while after my husband left me. I consider myself to be moving on and trying to get on with my life. However I still miss him like crazy. I miss the life we had and the life I expected to have for the rest of our lives. Its crazy how much I miss him. My friends tell me its crazy to miss someone who has put you through hell but I can't help myself. Its so hard letting go of him. I want to now. I used to hang on to everything he said and believe that we would get back together and life would be great. Now I even know that its better for us not to be together but thats not helping anything. I just want to stop missing him. I want to stop thinking about him all the time. Every once in awhile I just break down and start crying for absolutely no reason. I am so ready to move on and get over him. Sorry I'm just venting a little bit.
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