I know how you feel. I have lost 14 pounds now since last Wednesday. Food makes me sick, I can't choke it down. It sounds like you are the better person, so just take comfort in your children and know that you will be better off without a horrible person like that! Best of luck to you!

I can hear how upset you are about all that is going on , especially with the added strain of debt and them playing games.. It is never too late to save yourself, although I know it may seem like it.. It took me almost 19 years to have the courage to tell him to walk and by then my credit was ruined and in the ensuing year that we have been separated , he has make the situation so much worse, but thankfully I had papers drawn up and notarized when he left that will absolve me of being responsible for any of that 65,000 worth of debt.. But it doesn't make it any easier when we are trying to deal with the divorce, custody and our selves to have added worry.. It may not be pretty when it is all said and done, but you will have an opportunity to have a new life, without a liar and a cheater in it, and that is the pay off for you and the kids.. Limit contact with him to save yourself added stress and take a multivitamin if you are not able to eat.. Have you seen a dr about the tremors.. There are many reasons for them as you know if you are a Nurse. Try to rest, eat, and add exercise to help you rest when you do.. It will help.. It did me.. Get help with financial concerns from social services if you need too.. I am glad that you found us and am sending prayers of peace and comfort to you as you begin the journey to your freedom.. Hugs to you, Kimmee

Wishing you well...you have to keep up your health & strength for yourself & your kids. Maybe just eat little bits at a time...sort of graze? That's what I have to do. I was amazed that I could go so many days without eating, but it is not healthy.

I pray, and I am happy to pray for you & your children. Be well, girl.

I'm the same way and it really ended up making me sick. I developed anemia and it is so unpleasant. try to eat before it starts really affecting your health. My Mom just bought me old people liquid stuff , pathetic!

I'm with Kimmee accept I'm a little harder. I'm the double slap you seem to need right now.

First of all no one should have you like this. There is no man or woman walking on the face of this earth you should be giving this kind of power to. You're not eating, probably losing your hair, pacing the floor, simply a wreck while they plan their nice new life together. I don't know you but I still don't understand how you seem to lay down so easy. This time in your life will bring things out of you you had no idea existed. Most of all it should bring the fight out of you. You have to eat because you are in the midst of the fight of your life right now. A fighter doesn't go into the ring on an empty stomach; why are you?

I was left with debt to. When I got married 7 years ago I had perfect credit and a a cool stack of money in the bank. When I made the decision to walk away I had no money and I'm still trying to clear up debt. I never asked him for anything; didn't ask him to help me with the debt we created together because I was doing it on my own anyway. Now it's just the price of being free.

Now get up!!!! dust off your knees. If you can't get up ...stay down there to pray. If you don't believe your prayers will be heard..use your prayers to clear your mind. You don't have to stay down and out. COME ON!!!!

I try really hard not to medicate, but when I have that sick, shaky feeling, sometimes I turn to meds. I try to keep the dosage low, not take it every day (talking like xanex-type med). It does help me.

I'll pray for you to get through this bad time. Keep posting...we're here to support you!

Thank you all. I am trying the excersize, 3x a week for the last few months. I do activities with the kids and all that. I think the lying and manipulation about what I am doing is what is hurting me. I can only prove to a point that it is not true. I never lie and he is using that against me by using half truths and twisting what I say. And the tremours are anxiety attacks building up over days.
Thank you all again you have been wonderful.

Nurse; create your profile. Begin a journal. Trust me it does help.

Although divorce is very close to having a death in the family believe me it's not. In the end you having to live with this person and everything he's put you through. But at the end will be a new you. Don't let the new you lie before she is concieved.

Actually I have been on the meds since I had the kids and he bailed several times. Surprisingly I appriciate all of what everyone says. I am normally a person with strong faith in God and I am a good Christian woman. I believe all will work together for good. I can't see it now and I am very angry and frustrated and I don't know what to do with those feelings. I try to turn them over to God, but something new comes up. etc. I am drinking carnation instant breakfast, I just feel nauseous and I am not hungry. It is nice to have so much support here.

I understand what you're going through with the lies and manipulation. I lived with that for years. I got to the point I was so depressed I had to force myself to eat. But this, too, shall pass. I said a prayer for your health, both physical and mental. God bless :)

try to eat anything so you don't let your health suffer. But the my husbands a dick diet has helped me lose 18.5 #.

My husbands a dick diet..... I love it. that's so accurate. I love what Jac Jac said but I just had another round with my "D" and I went from feeling good to shaking with stress. It's so damn hard to not allow this crap to affect us.

hang in there. you need to eat. try a smoothie to keep up your energy. take care.

I lost 32 lbs through all of this. I can finally eat again and I've gained 10 back. *sigh* I guess I'll have to exercise and eat well like everybody else.

Nurse, you have to breathe. Just breathe.
You are going to be okay. It's all going to be okay. You'll get through all of this. But not all at once. It's hard to stop your mind from spinning with horrible details.
All you have to do, is breathe. Get through this one current moment. Right here right now.
Right here, right now you are okay. And you are supported and valued.

You are all so terrific. And those prayers are working because I feel ok right now. I didn't take anything, so you guys must have done a terrific job. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU