Last night was the final evening that my husband stayed in our home. I slept not a wink and neither did he. I helped him the past few days moving him into his new home. I found I needed that for closure. He told me a few times this week he is in love with me. He has been ?ing for weeks if he loved me or is in love with me. I am hoping he takes this time to reflect on his life and the mistakes that he has made over the years. I told him he needs to work on his relationship with his daughters 1st and foremost. I told him as far as me I can't promise him I will be here for him as a wife ever again. I am weak though, I can picture him calling me in a week and saying I messed up I miss you and I would run to him out of love and lonliness. I need the strength and courage to move on and say the final goodbye tonight. That is what is making me feel the worst is the final goodbye. He is having a friend get the remaining stuff out of here and both of his vehicles so I will be here to see him pull out for that final time. My heart feels broken all over again.
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