I got really sad tonight. Feel like no-one will ever really know me. This is heightened by the result of several things that happened this week, subtle interactions with people, just sad. I truly do feel like I am a worthwhile person to know, rather interesting and fun actually, but fear that I will die w/o anyone really appreciating that. I don't feel like my own family even know who I am. The ex is, of course, his own story.... Wouldn't it be nice to go to my grave knowing that someone really did know who I am? I really am sad about this tonight, I feel like my words here are so hollow given the depth of this feeling. Laugh, if you must, it's still how I feel. I wonder why it is so important to me that I be "known" by someone before I die. Maybe cuz that would sort of verify that I existed? I feel pretty forgettble right now. All of the mean people can just stuff it on this one, I am serious here. Wish I could express it better. Frustrated. It is good that I am trying to express it, that much I know.
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