I was doing really good for a few days now.. and i went and did it to myself again.. I called him just because I wanted to have a normal conversation with him, because I do miss him. And it was nice. But now I feel like kicking myself in the ass for doing it.. One step forward and 3 steps back. I really think that I am nuts.. He is so dead set on making this happen. And I still dont really know why... I mean if i know its over, he should too.. I just want to know the real reason he left me.. I just need to know the truth.. I dont love you anymore dont work.. I need to know the why...I want him to tick off the reasons.. Because I dont have a clue.
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