it's been yrs. since i haven't felt motivation to do anything for my husband, i don't want to cook for him, don't want to do laundry for him, and of course SEX is a torture for me, last night i took an ambien, to sleep, he knows i get somewhat confused and groggy and i have short term memory the next day. well i feel bad, because i woke up in my underwear this morning, and i don't remember what happened at all, no memory what so ever but i know he had sex with me, because there was a condom in the trash can. i feel like i was abused again, but in a different way.