So after doing pretty well for over a month of no contact, I responded to an im he sent me asking how I was. For a few weeks after that, it was ok talking to him every now and then, but the more talk of the new girl came up, the more I realized he is truly with someone else and happy. And who am I to be unhappy about someone else's happiness? I have been kidding myself during the past few weeks thinking we can be just friends. And then, here and there wishes that he would eventually break up with the new girl would creep in. Also at this time, I found myself thinking...well, if I can just stay friends with him now and things dont work out with them, maybe we can be together again. This was subconcious at one point, but now in retrospect, I can look back and say for sure that this is what I was/am thinking. I know no contact is probably the answer, but somehow I still find the unhealthy side of me wanting to be there. Any thoughts on the subject?
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