Well my husband called me at work today to tell me he is moving out this weekend. He asked me to go somewhere with the kids so he can load up and it will be easier on him. My feelings are so confused. I know it is a good thing because of all the damage he has created in his war path, but I feel so much pity for him. He has it all. He tells everyone I am the "perfect" wife. That I have always stood beside him through all his decisions and I have been faithful and fulfilling, but he wants to learn how to do it on his own. His life has turned into the single bar life and getting other women's phone numbers. I can't see how he can say he loves me, but look for something in someone else. It is not lack of sex, love, faith, deterination, so then what is it. Why for some men is 1 woman not enough. He wants to have his cake and eat it to. Part of me wants to hang onto him and go against all my morals and say then have it, but I know I am worth more than that. I want to set an example for my daughters on what a relationship is and that is not what it is. It is 2 people that love each other unconditionally through everything. I feel so cheated that I did that and did not get it in return. I hope there is someone out there for me that can love me for me. I am not a perfect woman, but I cherish family and my values. I am hoping in the end we both find what we are looking for. This is supposed to be a "trial" seperation, but how can a marriage be trial? If you are willing to walk away once who is to say you wouldn't do it again. I just needed to get my thoughts out there to my friends on DS and hope to find the strength from you to make it through this week.
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