My husband and I legally separated one week ago. I moved out of his house 10 days ago, Saturday before last. He told me he wanted to separate end of November. I asked if there was anyone else, and he denied it. Over the course of the past two months, he increasingly spent time talking outside on the phone, text messaging, and sending e-mails. He said he was communicating with friends, and continued to deny anything was going on with anyone. Meanwhile I am going nuts thinking there is something going on. Well, last Friday night my six year old son was with my husband overnight. I called there to say goodnight to him, and my husband said he was already in bed. My husband also said he had a few people over from work, but the way he described the get-together didn't add up. Anyway, when I got my son on Saturday morning, I asked if he had fun with Daddy's friends. He said there was only one there, Laura. Well then I knew it was true. She works at a different agency, but I had heard my husband mention this girls name before. I hit the roof, because he was bringing girls around my son just six days into this separation, and because I knew he lied. He still denies anything is going on. He says she is just a friend that he has been talking to, and she unexpectedly stopped by. Yeah right, it all adds up now. He continues to deny it, I continue to know its true, and I feel so betrayed by him. The man I married would have never lied. Now I know that at least the past two months have been nothing but lies. Dealing with the separation was enough, but this on top of it makes the days almost unbearable, and I just literally cannot stand the way I feel. I spend a lot of time anxious, pacing around the house, looking at the computer and that is about it. Sometimes I feel like I am going to have a panic attack. I am unfortunately unemployed right now so that doesn't help. I can't stand the way I feel, knowing he betrayed me and is with her. So much adds up now and who knows how long this has been going on. I unfortunately still dearly adore this man and would take him back in a minute, although I am really upset with him right now. What do I do to make my days more bearable? I am looking for jobs in my field, but that could take awhile. I literally can't stand this!
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