It's been one month now since H left. I just found out last week that the bitch is in from Canada and will be here for another week. He never even told us. He thought he could hide it. I am hurting so bad because I just found out for how long I have been played as a fool. He took down all the pictures of me in his office and put them up of him and her. My kids are huting, I am hurting. I just don't know how to let go. I was cleaning out his drawers in our room yesterday since he made a new home for himself and left all his crap at my house, and found condoms that weren't ours in his nightstand. I just feel like I keep getting blows that I don't deserve. He has been lying for so many years, I don't know what the truth is anymore. Who I thought he was, he isn't. He says our dreams changed. We are not the people we once were, that I lost my self esteem on my own, that he didn't have anything to do with it. He tells me he is not closing the door, that he needs his space to see what he wants, but the pain for me is so great. I just don't know how to get past all this. I actually am beginning to hate him, which is not what I wanted. He just walks around like nothing is wrong, started a new life and forgot his old one.
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