I'm suppose to sign motgage papers for my house tomorrow. Everything is happening too quick for me. I feel like I am under so much presuure that I am going to burst. My husband wants to move on without me, I have to move out, get another job, take care of my daughter, decide whether or not to let my parents move in with me. It's too much. I think because of all of this I made a huge mistake. I have been trying to understand why my stbx won't even consider giving us another chance. I can forgive him and I am willing to do what it takes to make things better. I can look at this horrible time as a catalyst to make our relationship better and stronger. I confronted him again asking if he would at least try, that maybe we are moving too fast, that maybe I shouldn't buy the house and we could each take time for ourselves and at the same time work on our marriage. But its not what he wants, he is just done. Why do we do this? In my head I know he is done and why would I want to be with him when he doesn't want me. But my heart takes over and I look in his eyes and see the person who loved me once and I can't stop thinking he could learn to love me again. Why can't we let them go?
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