I have been divorced for a year and a half and lost evereything to the point that I had to move back to my ex's house until I get back on my feet. I know that the reason why he accepts me in his house... Because of my kids and because he knows I am where I am because of him. The problem is that even when I am just trying to get back on my feet, he thinks we are a family again. To be honest, I have thought about how happy my kids are and comfortable and much easier things are for the kids and us. But just the thought of being with him as his wife and doing everything that being a wife entitles makes me sick. This man hurt me without compassion and I would hate it if I let myself get fooled again after he inflicted so much pain. But where do I set the bounderies of accepting his help that is so much needed and not falling into his trapt again. I wish I could explain everything to somebody as clear as it is in my mind and in my heart, but I can't express exactly the pain I feel after the man I trusted for 20 years- 5 dating and almost 16 married- turned to the most horrible and feared monster I've ever seen in my life. I need to step back some how and put everything in prospective before this manipulative man wins again. "I want to scream".....
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