My kids from my marraige are going to their dads this Thanksgiving. I just recently broke up with my ex boyfriend (not my kids dad). His family became my own because besides my kids, I have none. We would go to his family's house for the holidays and this year we are broken up. Im am on good terms woth most of his familt. I actually visited with his mother a few days ago and she thinks of me as a daughter. She was very concerned about me being home alone on Thanksgiving and told me I'm always welcome to come as usual if it isn't awkward for me. It definately would be since he would be there plus everyone knowing what had happened. My ex knows he was mostly at fault for the end and so does his family. I feel like going there would be a huge mistake but what do I do to control these intense feelings during the holidays? Im litterally foung to be crying in my bed while everyone eats a good meal with family. Im also very upset with my ex due to the fact he couldn't get his act together for me wgich caused me to walk away from the relationship for the 3rd time. He made me lose not just him but his family. The only one I got. Though they say im always family, its not rely tru cause I can't be apart of their events. My other question is, what if my ex contaxts me and wants me to come? Should I go? I still love him and desire to be woth him but feel it'll only hurt me cause I'm not sure he feels the same.