Full of rage over details that are so out of control and choices being made for me. Again , none of this I wanted and i continue to get it all shoved down my throat. Came unglued this afternoon after having it pent up inside me all day long. I went to the ski hill and ran that a few times, then went to the track for a mile of sprints at full blast, still not tired ran up and down the bleechers on the field for 4 sets. made a choice to stop before i injured myself due to adrenaline rush. And as i sit and write this i am considering hopping on my bike and pedaling as hard as i can for a 1/2 hour or mabe 10 miles. cant even get into the details of why i am mad or it will kick in again. i am in a hyper accelerated state right now. lfor those who have been through this how do you control the rage that builds over someone who jus doesnt give a sh*t over how you will survive and pick up the pieces?
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