My husband is leaving me. We have been married 13 years and I thought he was my soulmate. I love him very much. But because of depression and drinking I have driven him away. He gradually cut me out of his family life and then his social life because when we argued, and he would walk out, I would drink and then make a scene,,twice at his local pub. He didnt want to go out with me after that. The last 5 weeks all he says is he doesnt love me and hates his life with me and then said he would stay because I asked him to...but that all he could give me was phone calls, one evening, and the odd cuddle if I asked for it. After 8 days in a row being at home on my own while he was out having fun I just told him I couldnt do it this way - he said forget it then and posted the mortgage forms for me to take over his half of the house. so in a few weeks he will pack up and be gone. I am devastated. I dont know how to get through each minute - and what about when he packs, when he walks out for good, when I see him getting on with his life? I have no friends, no nearby family, no children, and I am 46. It feels like it isnt worth carrying on.