I began trying to understand, truly understand what my wife has been feeling. I have asked some memebers here and friends in real life who have gone through this, how can I feel a little of what she is feeling? After following their advice, I did actually feel a small portion of what she has been living with. I can't stop crying. Thinking back over the years, how I treated her, how I've robbed her of her security, how I've robbed my children of their complete family. My wife has been very supportive and talks with me when Im upset. Mostly, she listens but does ask questions too. Any insight on how she might be viewing my emotional state. I am working on me, but letting it come at its own pace. I don't want to skip the emotional healing, I want to heal slowly and completely.
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