My H and I just celebrated our 10 year anniversary 3 weeks ago. Now, I am feeling like why am I still trying? What am I hold ing on too? It is true that I love him, but I don't like him very much. He has put me through a lot of crap these 10 years. And most of the crap was dished out to me within the past 2 years. Cheating on me, hiding financial problems, getting fired from his good paying job for being stupid, and the lastest cut that he gave me was buying a brand new SUV after we discussed that we could NOT afford a car or any other bill right now. I feel like he doesn't listen to a word that I say. He will tell me that he is listening and that he agrees with me, then he turns around and does the exact opposite of what we just discussed. Then, he acts as though he does not understand why I am pissed. I feel like I don't have any more fight left in me. I don't want to break up our kids lives.....moving from a nice big house to a tiny apartment...changing schools...leaving their friends...etc. But, I am at the end of my rope. I don't know what to do. I need help!!
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