Hi so I am 25. I have been married for 1.5 years, with my hubby for almost 5 years. I am due to give birth to our son Kaden in about 11 weeks. For some time now the possibility of us getting divorced/seperated is looking really good. We do weekly counseling and also I do inidivdual counseling as well. We have been doing this for several months now and we are still headed down the drain.I want a perfect life for my son where he has a mommy and daddy in his life everyday. Where we take him to the park together and do stuff with him as a family. However I am not seeing this in out future. I am miserbale with my husband. No cheating or abuse. I am just miserable with him. I feel like I have nothing left to give anymore. I am soo many fears about leaving Alex and right now I am souly with him because of our child together. But it is soo hard on me. Soo do I just stay with Alex and be miserable for the happiness and comfort of our child? Who will want to love me again now that I do have a child? Who will help pay the bills, I can't afford them on my own? Who gets the car? My pregnancy has been nothing but complicated, who will help with the those and making sure I am ok? I have become so adjusted to Alex sleeping by me and mowing the lawn after weeks of bitching.. who does this if I leave him? How do I explain to my best friend who we spend every silly holiday with, that we wont be having our awesome family BBQs anymore? How do you go on? I am soo scared of the future... I want to leave Alex soo badly, but how do I provide a stable enviornment for my son? I just don't know....
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