It's me again. The one who hasn't left him yet. One of the reasons is I can't bear the thought of him being with someone else. I posted a reply to someone a few minutes ago and realized something. I haven't left him after all the crap he's put me through over these 15 years because he's been faithful. After witnessing my parents cheat and having my first real boyfriend cheat on me, faithfulness seemed like such a rarity. Like such a good reason to stay and make it work. Well, now that I'm oh so close to leaving, I can't bear the thought of him being with someone else. What if he finds someone first? I would be devestated. How do you deal with that?
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