Me again, hope all my DS people are doing better than me I hope. I am an emotional mess. My STBX is still seeing her new boyfriend. When I know she is with him I keep calling her and asking her to stop hurting me like this. Why does she do this. Actually, why do I keep calling her. I just pick up the phone and keep doing it. It only pisses her off even more. She tells me she needs space and in time she might see things clearly. We still live in the same house and it is so hard to keep seeing her. She is moving out in a month but Christmas and my B-day is coming and I feel like crap. No energy whatsoever. While writing this I am calling her what the bloody hell is wrong with me. AM I GOING CRAZY. Somebody tell me this is normal.
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