My husband and I have been married for 3 years, together for almost seven. We have one child, a 20 month old girl. We are currently in counseling for the second time, following the second time i left him (or he threw me out, depending on how you look at it). I'm starting to feel like i dont want to work on our marriage anymore. I dont know if the feelings I should have for him are still there. We have been bickering non-stop, with a few days of peace in between. Most recently, when we were out for a night and he got drunk, he told me he would have left me long ago if it werent for our daughter. The sad part about him saying that is that it didnt really even bother me. After a couple of days, i brought the incident up to him, because he claimed he couldnt remember saying it (was too drunk, he says). Then he apologized and said he really loves me and our child, but i just dont know if i should continue to stay and feel so angry and just plain exhausted with him. This pattern of him telling me to get out, and that he cant stand me and everything else is nothing new, it started even before we were married. So i was blind, but now it appears the same problems are always going to be here. I truly love him and dont want to take our daughter from her home. I dont want to hurt anyone, but how can i be expected to live normally when i feel so fed up with him and our marriage. Any comments or suggestions would be welcomed.
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