well I was doing good, yesterday I didn't cry and I didn't call him. Now I was at work relaxed and concentrating on work and he starts calling me...myheart starts raicing pounding hard, my hands start sweating... i get anxious. I don't answer and sent him a text message "can't talk to you send me text".. he keeps calling then I start thinking (stupid me) he wants to say good bye before he goes out of state tomorrow morning... well I get a call from one of his friends saying.. I need to meet him after work to take care of some paper work (for me) that needs to be notorized and I need to be there.... he just wants to take care of everything not leave anything behind for his new life... I am devastated again and I don't evenknow HowI will control myself and not loose it when I see him later on... gash how do I control my self?
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