My husband and I have been married for 6 years. I've gone thru 3 tours of him being in Iraq where he began a porn addiction and addiction to those damn dating websites ( he always said he wasn't looking for a new woman, he just wanted to see what was out there). Like I believe that. He told me 2 weeks ago that he wants a divorce because he can't see being with me 50 years from now. He won't go to counseling to try to salvage our relationship. What makes it so hard is that aside from his internet crap, we never fought. He truly was the love of my life. We have a 2 and a 4 year old as well. I feel SO devistated and disappointed. He has turned so cold and mean. I have no doubt that there is probably another woman he has met on line that he has been talking with (he's in Iraq right now so I can't verify it, but I know my husband so I'm sure there is someone else). Every day is a struggle to breathe. When I look at my young children, I don't know what to say to them. At times I HATE my husband for doing this to us. At other times I can't help but remember all the wonderful things about him and our life together. I've shed so many tears over this, I've got a river running thru my house. I know it needs to end because I can no longer trust him, but how can I learn to accept the fact that it is indeed over and that life will go on. I am 35 years old with two young children and will be twice divorced. I know you always think you'll never find someone else, but right now I feel like such a loser. Like I am not worthy to be loved, even though I did everything I could to save our marriage. I could really use some words of encouragement or ways you may have dealt with your pain and anger over being left. Some days I just don't think I can take anymore.
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