As I sit here alone I wonder how long it will take for me to feel whole again. There is no going back to a past that once was. All I know is I have to heal this broken heart so that I can be better for love again. The time will come when I will be free from all of this. I was hurt so bad by the one I trusted. Time has helped, but it is slow and going. Each day is a new day and it will be filled with hope and a little less hurt. Each step getting me further away from the past and closer to a life where I can smile more and laugh more and love more then I ever had. She has taken away a lot but I will get more then she will ever have. I will be at peace and not weighed down with any regrets or guilt for I have faced the end of my marriage where she has escaped and not dealt with any of it. When I leave this world I will leave with peace in my heart and my soul for I will have lived my life with the knowledge that I have never hurt anyone the way I was hurt and I will have made the next person I loved just as happy or more as they will make me.
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