long story short; i had a car accident 2 months ago, broke many bones, and lost a lot (all) my friends, except my ex.. I was with him from 19-23 years old, with 2 breakups- one he went overseas one he moved interstate to be with his son... I had not seen him for a year but spoke on the phone weekly, then i saw him after the accident and he said things like when he's with me his troubles dissapear, that he still finds me attractive ect, and we're spending lots of time together but being very responsible and going sweperate ways at bed time (something we've never done) I AM SO SCARED HE WILL HURT ME AGAIN and he is my ONLY friend in the world at themoment, i am so scraed he is seeing someone and that he doesn't still love me, which is ludicrous since we broke up for good over a year ago, i am terrified, and i know i sholdnt trust him, but he is the love of my life,, and i know this sounds like nonsense cos i'm only 24 but i met hikm when i was 8 and wrote in my diary "one day i will marry that boy" and i think i still believe it,, but i'm terrified, and have no-one to talk to about this, as he is the only friend i have.. help if you have any time to pleeease!!
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