Came back to moms yesterday, after being woke up at 5:30 hounded for sex and a continuance of the previous days arguments cause my step-brother called my cell. The arguement carried on throughout morning and at 10 thirty or so he decided to come to the house and get even worse than he was... as it was he getting to keep his girls (me babysitting them of course this entire time) for a third week which isnt in the court papers. He thought I would "kidnap" the girls when I left to come back here to my moms (they live in this same town with thier mother) and he would rather meet thier mother in Hot Springs than me take them the entire trip to their mom, and he said he didnt want me around the girls cause I was a bad influence, and would turn them against him or something. Well, after a couple few hours of arguing and he wouldnt move his truck so I could leave he decided to leave the girls with me and go back to work. I also influenced him that I wouldnt leave so that he would stop his childish controlling behaviors. After he left he called still raising a fit about it all, my mom knowing about our problems, she is who I went to with them and all I have to talk to about it, he doesnt want me talking to her at all. I had enough, and I knew when he got home from work it would start up again and I couldnt handle it. About an hour or 2 I had us all packed in the car, the girls, four pets and all our stuff, and we were on the way out of there, to get the money my mom wired me for gas since he wouldnt put but ten in gas maximum into my car, and at the time my car was on empty and I wouldnt get out of town on that. I was headed to get the money when he called, asking what we were doing, that he was about to get in the truck and come home cause he thought I would run with the girls. I told him we were at the library, (we did drop a book off there that we had out but had just left the library and on way to get money) and were about to go inside as soon as the rain let up some, he was confused cause he thought I was leaving, and I again influenced him that I wasnt going anywhere, and we would see him when he got off from work, that the rain has eased and we want to go inside before it gets worse again... I got off the phone, got the money, put the twenty five in gas tank and we headed out. I called their mom and told her I was on the way with them so that one of the parents knew what was going on and they wouldnt be in the dark when he got home and found out that I had taken the girls and left him. At the time he usually calls when he gets off he called and asked what I was doing, if I was back home from library now, and I told him No, I am almost to Y city, and he then got upset and asked if I lied to him about going to the library, I told him yes, and then told him the battery on the phone was about dead and he told me I had other things to worry about like getting my mom to bail me out of jail and hung up on me. (previously he took the sim card from my phone and wouldnt let me have it cause it was his credit who got me the phone) I called the girls mother and told her that he threatened to call police on me, and he was calling her, so we hung up. He called me back about 5 minutes later and asked me if I had turned around or was I still headed to eldo (home town) and I said still headed to eldo, and he told me to be prepared to be picked up.. and hung up again.. my battery completely died then, and we continued driving. We made it and I took the girls to their mom first off, then came to my moms, called the cell I had and he had the number disc or suspended I dont know which, thats fine too. Dont have to worry about charging the phone if it doesnt work. Well, I am here, will have to get a uhaul or borrow a truck and trailer to get the furniture and my stuff from the house soon, and hope he doesnt try and start his shit while I am getting my stuff.

This makes me feel like a failure, I know its just the things he said that are getting under my skin but I dont know what to do to stop it from bothering me.. Any suggestions? I will take all the advice I can get. (For previous info read my journal)