I have not called this man that left me and it is killing me, He says we shouldn't see each other for a month, but if I need to talk or need something to call him. He always seems to know what is best for me so he says. He is off living his life the way he wants it while I am in place where I know no one. I am so lonely, I have been trying to find friends but it is so hard, I never thought I would ever be in this position. He wasn't sure what he wanted in life, he found someone at work that is independent and doesn't want commitment. He has been going out of his way to make sure I am happy and settled in the apartment he thought would be good for me because it is near my job but not near family or friends, they are all and hour away. I just want to call him and let him know I am doing ok and that I am doing ok without him, even though I am suffering, I just want him to suffer the way I am. Life if not fair, I gave up everything for this man for five years and he does this to me why? Am I wrong to want to call him and just keep him wondering about me?
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