Hello every one, I'm new to this forum. Let's see where do I start, my husband decided on Feb. 9th that he no longer wanted to be married any more. He packed up his stuff and moved to NJ with his mother. He left me down here with our two children. I didn't see this coming. I mean I really wasn't happy but I didn't expect him to do something like this. I am heartbroken and so are my children. This is my second marriage. I have a 14 year old son from my first marriage and he is very close to my husband. We also have a two year old daughter together. My son is angry at my husband. Actually today my husband asked my son if he could ever forgive him for leaving. My son said yes because that's what Jesus would want him to do :) My daughter on the other hand cries. She misses her dad. As a matter of fact, my husband has her this weekend (he came down) and he can't even leave the room without her crying. As for me, I haven't had time to think about how I feel because I'm so worried about my children. I do have my moments when they sleep and I have realized that eventhough I still love him and in my heart I want to still be married, I know I can't be with him nor do I think it's in the best interest of myself or my children. He pulled this leaving stuff last June(right after I had a miscarriage) and I can't allow him to disrupt me and my kids lives like this over and over again. You only get two times with me. I will be divorcing him no questions asked. I'm tired of it. I'm tired, I'm sad, I'm angry, I'm bitter etc etc. This is my second failed marriage by the age of 35 and I feel like such a failure. I also wanted another child but I guess that's not going to happen. I also feel used. He lost his job and I have done nothing but support him. I worked two jobs and operated my own business. I am also in school. I get angry at myself because when I see my kids upset I think about how I should not have allowed this to happen. I should have NEVER taken him back the first time. I am just a bunch of emotion right now. I know it will get better with time. I just need a place where I can vent and I can meet some new friends. Thanks for listening.
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