Okay it's meditation time - just because I need it mostly - Journey to the Heart - Melody Beattie

"Heal your Fear of Abandonment

Some say the fear of abandonment is a universal fear. It's common to most people in most places. It is that anguishing, heartbreaking moment when we believe someone is going to leave us. For many of us, the fear began when some important person did leave or abandon us -physically or emotionaly. Now the very thought of it happening again terrifies us.
Although the fear may be universal, if we have it, it still belongs to us. It needs to be faced, felt, acknowledged and released--it needs to be healed--or else it may control our lives and harm our relationships.
Sometimes we may fear being abandoned so much that we don't want anyone to leave us--even people we don't like--because it triggers that old familiar feeling. If we don't deal with it, however , people can use it against us. All they have to do is threaten to leave and we crumble, acquiesce at the mere thought of feeling that way again.
Underneath the fear of abandonment another fear may lurk too, a deeper fear that somhowe we've made the people we love go away. Sometimes in our lives, certain people have had to go away because that is where their path led them. But if they felt confused, guilty, or uncertain about leaving, they may have lied to us. They may have told us we did something wrong, we caused the separation, it was our fault they were leaving And their lie embedded in us.
Did someone tell that lie to you? Tell yourself something different. Tell yourself the truth. YOu don't make people go away. You weren't the cause. If someone needed to leave you, that was his or her choice.

Heal your fear of abandomnment.
Set yourself and others free."