I don’t know where to start from as I have no energy and courage but after joining this forum and reading some of your post has given me some strength so want to pen down my pain. We had a love marriage and been married for 14 years and we have one 8 year old daughter together. From starting everything was good for some time however after 1 year or so love gone into drain and only ego, anger, non-compatibility came in the relationship. My H is the best example of egoistic pig, the biggest Mr. know all- my way is right only person, treat woman like shit and jealous of my any achievement at work but on the other hand he wants to me to work -work- work and work bring money as he can’t feed me take care of my daughter. We are from Australia and he always wanted to go to US he has been always wanting to go there to live and work. He got a chance and he left for never to come back. In past he was physically abusive to me but he controlled my life like a puppet and he verbally abuse to me the extent that I feel worthless and I have no right to live in this world. For him I have sacrificed everything in my life to keep our family together for our daughter but now the question has come to verge that should I kill my own identity and just live in this hell as a beggar for my daughter's sake.
I'm going through an emotional trauma 1 minute I feel I'm the most successful women at work, financially secure as he never supported me financially but just getting that feeling that he rejected me suddenly he doesn’t love me anymore and walked of our lives without thinking about me at all makes me sick to the stomach the very next minute. I feel i will end up alone with no one to love me. I'm so confused everything looks so dark that I see no light. The pain of separation in unbearable as even after he treating me so worst I think I still I love him but then I question is this love or just the sense of habit and security of a man around me.
Please help me as what should I do as I have a little daughter to care and she is my responsibility and I don’t want her life to impact.
Please advise. Thank you all.
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