So I saw my stbx last night at the gym. For some reason he likes to come all the way across town to my gym to work out. Anyways, we start talking... He basically says that he realizes how great I am and how he could never be the spouse that I need him to be until he finds himself. He hasn't written me off and asked if I would consider coming back to him if/when he finds himself. I love him with all my heart, and to hear this gave me hope. But I know i need to move on and do my own thing. But the thought of losing him totally and completely just makes me insane. I wish he never said that and i wish i could still hate him... I know he is lost, i know he is depressed and unhappy. He did not give to me what i gave to him. But for some reason i have hope for him and believe that we still have a chance if he just came out of the funk he's in... I just feel like shit b/c i care too much and have too big of a heart to let go.
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