So I wrote a post earlier how I had called him in a moment of weakness. I have to write this out so I just affirm it. He is probally not going to call. I have to start forgiving myself and focusing on me. I have to accept he is gone. He is not good for me. To many addiction problems and ego problems. Let someone else be his enabler or he can keep being his own enabler. I know this is the way I feel today I have to keep thinking this way. It is the only way I can keep from going deeper into depression. I have to keep going. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
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