I was in a three year relationship with a guy that I loved very much. Altho there was a lot about him that didn't bother me in the beginning (pot, pot growing, porn) it wore on me and I went a little nuts (especially the porn when he should be in bed with me) and lost myself. We lived together and when it ended I was out - he owns a house/pool from a trust fund, and now, at 32 I am back with my parents because we ended. I am also out of work. I had put my whole entire life in his hands - big mistake - and now I am left picking up the pieces. He already has a new, younger, richer, and more "put together" girlfriend in his life. They've been together 2 months and it still hurts. He wont even speak to me. I am so hurt and feel so replaced and abandoned. I am left practically desolate, and he has a new gf and a hefty trust fund. It's killing me. I am so lost. I see her all over myspace bragging about how great her new bf is and how she is the luckiest girl alive. I want to get off myspace b/c I keep seeing her everywhere I go and I constantly compare myself to her. (She has long blonde hair and bigger boobs, makes more money than me, likes to grow pot, etc). I see their commonalities, but I just can't help but feel like I must not be good enough. My head is really making me crazy and I just feel like such a loser in relationships. They never seem to work out. Will it ever get better????? I am really hopeless. S.O.S.
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