My boyfriend or ex now have been together over a year now. We had some difficulties in the past but things have been going so well and I've even started reflecting about marriage. He told me yesterday that he has been happy with the way things have been going with us but he is still not sure if I'm the "one" Even though things have been going well he doesn't have that assurance that I'm the one for him and according to him he wants to be fair to me since he can see that I'm looking for marriage and he doesn't know when if ever he will feel that way towards me. Well I'm absolutely devastated right now. We didn't break up at a low point but at a high point in our relationship it seems and it just makes me question my own judgement or whether I will ever find someone for me. A man leaving me and telling me he feels I'm not the one feels somehow so much worse than if we have broken up because of issues that we have been having. I'm just realy devastated right now. It takes a while for me to put my guard down but when I do I fall hard and i suffer for it it seems. i don't know what mistakes I keep making and why its hard for me to find someone. I just feel like I'm not good enough.
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