My H cheated and now I feel as though I get to pay for his mistake. The OW is pregnat too. We don't have kids together but i have a wonderful step-daughter that i cant imagine not seeing. We've only been together for 3 yrs but married 11months. If he cheated this early into out marriage is it worth staying. Lately I have to be the one to beg him to talk to me!? He says he's sorry but right now those words mean nothing to me. If i leave I lose everything, he only loses a wife he cheated on. My mind doesnt stop. All I hear is that it'll get better...WHEN? He lost his job 2.5 months ago and still doesnt have one (not like him) and it seems like w/ the expierence he has he could get one. So i get to go through all of this, AND try to keep my head clear enough to pay all the bills. I love him so much so i'm not sure i can forgive him, not sure i want to. I feel like i'm in a room full of ppl an im screaming yet no one can hear me? The OW is supposidly going to have an abortion(she changes the date everytime) and thus he has to remain her 'friend' or she'll 'keep it out of spite.' So i also get to deal with him talking to her for HOURS(4-7) @ a time, whether it be on the phone or at her house. he says hes doing it for me, for us. well if i meant that much to him, why did he cheat in the first place?????
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