I don't post often but have been reading the current posts a lot the past couple of weeks. I'm just over a year divorced. A divorce I did not want but am to blame for. It tore me apart and I truly hit rock bottom! I'm slowly getting myself back together but......I'm still struggling with the loss of my ex. She moved on extremely quickly and I do mean extremely quick!! We have two young sons together so have to maintain communication for their sake. I currently live in another state but hope to move back by the end of the year to be near my sons. Here's my dilemma-I still feel the need to talk to my ex about things. I've really had an awakening of sorts in the past few months which has been good and bad I guess. For the bad, I've realized the things I did wrong in our marriage of 10 years and I feel the need to e-mail her and tell how sorry I am for things I did or didn't do. I never talk about getting back together or anything like that because I know that will never happen. I e-mailed her today just to tell her I hoped she has a good Mother's Day and that I thought she was a good mother. I truly mean it. I told my mom that I had done this and she thinks it was a very, very bad idea. Yes, I'm 38 but still value my mother's opinion. :-) She's worried that my ex will think I'm stalking. I know I need to let go and move on and stalking her is certainly not my intention. It's so hard since we have children together. So I guess my question is this: Do you think I'm stalking or can it be perceived that I am?? Any thoughts are appreciated.
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