I can't believe I am still having such a hard time ending things and having no contact. Why do I even still want to be with him? A big part of me wants to talk to him, tell him that I still care for him so much that I miss being with him, just want to put it all out there and say how I feel and what I want. I either want him to be with me and do things with me and have a relationship or I want it to be done completely and never speak to him again. He called yesterday to tell me that he had been to the Dr to get help to stop using, then he told his daughter's Mother knew about me and said that his daughter is not ready for him to be introducing her to other women. Funny thing is over the summer I spent a lot of time with his daughter and there wasn't a problem because her mother didn't know about me. Now I feel that the reason his daughter didn't come for Christmas is all because her mom found out about me after 2 years of knowing him, and the ironic part is she found out after we stopped spending time together and became nothing more than just friends. As always I am the one who is left feeling terrible. I am back to crying again! Of course there are other things going on in my life causing me a whole lot of stress too maybe that's why I wish things were the way they used to be he was my escape for a few hours at night. Damn damn damn this sucks! So what should I do? Tell him how I feel and what I want? or just walk away?
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