Don't really know why...just been too much drama lately I suppose. I've been trying to read my Bible...but it's like I can't even focus on the words at the moment. This isn't like me...I'm usually so positive about things but I just feel overwhelmed at the moment. It's just a dark place for me to be. I just keep thinking about how much he's hurting my children...and I've devestated. Not even so much for myself..but for them. I gave them a father who's pathetic...that's who I choose. Because of me, they are stuck with someone who's not even man enough to be a dad. I just feel like crap, want to crawl into bed, turn out the lights, and pull the covers over my head.
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