I was with my boyfriend 10 yrs. we considered each other tobe husband & wife. We were having issues in our relationship and I shrugged em off. He found a place of his own and I thought he was doing it to send for his son in Philadelphia since he was having troubles and he needed to be removed from peer pressure. In the mean time he was staying in my house while having this apt. and not paying a dime. Until June of 2009 we had a big argument & he yelled, not asked, are you interested or not? so I yelled back NO and he left. I didn't mean that I didn't want to throw 10 yrs away. Well I gave him his space until 2 weeks later I went to Taco Bell to get something to eat and seen his car so I decided to park & see if he was with anyone. I couldn't believe it, he was with a female (whom I found out later was his first fiance and came from Puerto Rico) I stormed in and asked what the hell was going on and he said we weren't together anymore and as much as I wanted 2 hit her cause she said Hi to me with a smirk, I didn't I walked out. It bothered me that after 10 yrs he didn't call me to give me an explanation so I called him the next day and he said he didn't have 2 tell me anything. I was so hurt. Next day I went over to his place to get some answers well he stopped me in my tracks at the driveway. She was there with her 3 daughters. I just broke down. He told me I drove him to do that. I told him I wasn't interested anymore. He has cancer and he said he doesn't want 2 be alone. I couldn't believe that's how much I meant to him. A couple weeks later he called me to see if he had any mail and asked how I was, I told him why ask if you don't care. He told me that I thought the wrong way from what I seen at Taco Bell that she is just here for the summer. Well its Sept & she is still here and he tells me that he still thinks of me.I know he is just with her to get over me. Instead of picking his son he picked her with her daughters. There is so much more but I asked him for another chance I told him I would change I'd learn to cook etc. but he said no. He is done with relationships but she is still here. I am having a hard time with this I still love him and the thought of him being with another in bed just crushes me. I can't stand it. I've been to a counselor and he said its him not me. He doesn't want to face up to responsibility. I don't know why but I want him back even though he has so many issues to deal with and I am issue free. We have been thru so much together its hard for me 2 let go. I am so depressed. I wait for his call everyday but he told me he doesn't call to see how I am because he doesn't want 2 give me hopes. What do I do?
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