Okay here it is! I am happily married! But from time to time i think about my ex husband, and don't know why? Its not like i still love him because I don't love him like that. I guess you could say I have love for him but don't love him. He was my first real relationship, Married at 18 and with him for Four years married for three. We fought all the time and he always told me i was gulabull and he was emotionally abusive. For the time i was with him I had no friends because all he wanted was for it to be just us. And it got to the point to where he was all i had. When I wanted to leave i would pack a bag walk around the block and come home because I had noone and nowhere to go. When He deloyed yes it sounds bad. but when he deployed in August of 2005 I felt a great weight off my shoulders and started working, Made friends both things i wasn't able to do before because of his controlling nature. but while I was working i met my husband now and started off as friends never did I think that i would end up with him but when My ex found out I was working and had friends girl and guy friends he flipped because he wanted me to stay home with my dogs. That is when the lightbulb lit I knew I needed to get out right then and there. If i had waited I wouldn't have been able to do it. And i wouldn't be happy. So why do I still think about him??? Is it because I was with him so long? I think I feel a little guilty because I left him like that but I wasn't happy and I did try everything possible to fiz that relationship. I don't know what i want to know is it normal to think about my ex? We divorced in June of 2006. when will I stop thinking about him? I know that its probably an oversite but what do you think?
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